REGGYS DIARY

"Knock knock."

"Yes, who is there?"

"Me"

"Me who?"

"Your Mind"

"Why are you out there?"

"You chased me."

"When?"

"When you welcomed a stranger."

"Who?"

"Depression"

"How?"

"You lost hope"

"Can you get her out?"

"Yes, if you let me in."


It starts in the mind, with wrong thoughts...
                                                 
May peace reside with all who are depressed,
                                                 
May light shine on all in the dark...
                                                 
Speak up when the mind wanders,

Help is around the corner.

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Dawn of June 2018, I had one of the weirdest dreams, funnily I woke up relaxed and unbothered, unbeknownst it happening the next day.

 I lost the love of my life. Yes I said it love of my life, I knew I was in love but with the wrong man which I chose to be heedless about it and the next day came he said ''I can't do this again'', my face fell short of smiles, I lost myself, I lost my sanity, I became a shadow of myself.

''Baby girl you got this'' I told myself, a big lie as I didn't, cause every night I had a soaked pillow and prayed not to die eventually while he is living his best life. My accountability partners stayed by me even though I smiled and laughed in their presence and everyone hailed ''yo bitch you're strong''.

I was dying, I knew only me could help myself and I held to heart every advice. I had panic attacks, I was scared that I was too vulnerable, I saw the blue or white coat and I kept telling myself Why God? I knew it wasn't right but why now, why not earlier? it felt comfortable trying to throw blames, I knew I was the one who delayed it, I just wasn't prepared for it, he was the most caring man I have come across but I lived in a negation of who he was a venal and a malingerer. I was flawed too

December came, a friend lost his engagement, he reached out to me, I questioned myself after we spoke, then I knew that was my healing right there, I became his therapist and as the day went by, I found a genuine smile and I was in a better place. I still believe in meliorism and love.

                                           I SMILED AGAIN, I FOUND HAPPINESS, I FOUND ME- SHE SAID.

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